Elian Darkan will be the future of me. He will be the future of the Mystics. I don’t know why he is hunted so much by the Matians but I will find out. I have plans and I have plots and I will get what I want out of them. Elian has such a long learning curve that I don’t know how long before he will come out of it. The Matians are looking for me. They are looking for Raven Shadow and it’s only a matter of time until they find me. I don’t know what they will do when they figure out that Rae Smith and Raven Shadow are the same. I am sure that then that they will try and kill me.
This journal started as the time of my life that at one point I know that I will want to forget. It will serve to prove that I can do what I need to do. No matter the cost to me. I have killed and I have schemed. I have found redemption and I will protect him.
The Matians will get neither of us. They still don’t see me for what I am. They will be surprised at what they have awoken. The key to our future is in the past and I have to uncover it. The Darkan and Shadow lines have always been twisted around each other. We keep them calm and they keep us human. We are forever linked. I don’t fear the future any longer. I am no longer alone. While he stabs around blindly, he also pulls me closer. I am his shield and I will be his sword.
I had no use for the immortals and the faes and the witches over the past years. They held no will to help me kill the Matians. It wasn’t out of not wanting to get involved but that they had their own families to look after. The Matians had become the boogey men. I was at a weak point. I was unable to protect them. Now I am strong. I have what I need and I will take what I want.
I close this journal as I look out onto the sunrise. Elian is asleep upstairs and I sit in his garden. I have found a home with him. I will teach him what I learned at the feet of my parents and his ancestors. He will become what the Darkans were.
We will be two beams of light in the darkness and we will pull the others into our light.
The next phase of my life is starting and I am unsure for the first time in my life what the future will fully hold for me.
Will Be Continued in Elian’s Awakening during the April 2014 Rough Trade Event